It's absolutely frightening.

I am scared.

They're awfully endearing.

 Goodbye May-- you're like a repeat of last year, just not as bad.

 Mothers don't like me, apparently.

 I am the crazy, insane girl with silly emotions that boys don't want to deal with.

 I am moldable into anything you want me to be, yet I still retain the obsessive, I-want-to-hang-out-with-you-more-than-you-want-to-hang-out- with-me / I will scare you off / The chase is over.

 I can't stand being neglected.

 Show me that you like me for me.

 When it rains, it pours -- and they only want me as a friend-with- benefits.

 They don't want anything "serious."

 I'm fucking sick of all these boys.

 I get that.

 I just want to not feel like this.

 To self: feel better, now!

 Every little thing sets me off,

 Every little thing makes me care when I shouldn't.

 Every little thing gets under my skin and makes me want to scratch myself till I bleed.

 My biological clock makes me irrational and supercedes my core -- logic.

 It's not fair.

 Irrationality doesn't jive with reality.

 Let me shake this misery.

 Allow me to be myself.

 Allow me to perform at my best.

 Gotta get through this week without doing or saying something dumb.

 To be sensual, you have to be passionate, no?

 But being passionate does not mean you have to be sensual, right?

 I go crazy over quotes that work successfully in my life.

 What I didn't realize was that these "truths" I'm searching for are actually principles.

 I don't know how this has slipped pass me all these years, but I now understand my yearning for correct and absolute principles.

 Here's my most recent favorite quote that made me have an epiphany tonight:

 "Correct principles do not change. We can depend on them. Principles do not react to anything. They won't divorce us or run away with our best friend. They aren't out to get us. They can't pave our way with shortcuts and quick fixes. They don't depend on the behavior of others, the environment, or the current fad for their validity. Principles don't die. They aren't here one day and gone the next. They can't be destroyed by fire, earthquake or theft.

 Principles are deep, fundamental truths, classic truths, generic common denominators. They are tightly interwoven threads running with exactness, consistency, beauty, and strength through the fabric of life.

 Even in the midst of people or circumstances that seem to ignore the principles, we can be secure in the knowledge that principles are bigger than people or circumstances." -Stephen Covey's, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People.